D O N ' T - F E A R - T H E - W R E E P E R

Allright, you people are in for a real treat today. The story in this blog post was written July of 2004 and in a strange twist turned out to be prophetic. My sister in law (not the one in the story) got hit by a truck and suffered massive injuries and was in an Allester Crane style coma for three weeks, then snapped right out of it miraculously. This is a story of mystery and it's a story of progressive revelation, as it is written, "The waiting is the hardest part, every day see one more card". Knowing the cover of the "Agents of Fortune" album will help understand the story. Some people see one thing in the picture and others see something else.

In the six months from March to September of 1980 David Stanley had gotten to know and get closer to the love of the year, Laura. We covered these six months in a file that is a secret and the name is only known by my sister-in-law, a guy named “Joe” and some people in India, and has something to do with the Door’s. In mid September Laura appeared to dump him and David Stanley grew very depressed. In the mean time Howard, a mutual friend of two people had died and had promised money in an oral agreement to both Jim and Dave. They didn’t get any because “an oral agreement is not worth the paper it’s written on”. But one Friday in late September they made plans to make their way to Chicago. Jim had said, “Dave, you have to come along because Howard always trusted you more than he trusted me”. David wanted to take the dog, Toby, too. Dave wanted to stop at a Motel in San Barnadino because it was getting dark and he needed to “Think things over”. Jim had wanted to keep going further.

Here’s a sample of “Captive Boscs”. On Friday September 26^th. 1980 me and Jim Cooper were driving in a Dodge Charger and Jim says “It’s your turn to drive”. But after din-ner I didn’t feel like going further so we stayed in a motel near San Bernardino. The next morning we took off with me driving. We were headed up grapevine pass or whatever on an upgrade when we were hit by an out of control speeding semi truck that jumped the highway. We were both instantly killed. The driver complained that the sun was in his eyes from his hospital bed where he was suffering from a few broken bones and some cuts and bruises. Jim Cooper immediately found he was able to leave his body. One Monday evening on July 19^th. 2004 I was gazing at the crescent moon when I blacked out and found myself around the block of the tract with the Bosc house. [ BOSC stands for Blue Oyster Secret Cult and Jim Cooper came up with that himself] I turned north and walked down the street looking at the houses and was surprised to see that the Bosc house had looked the way it looked a long time ago. The bay window was gone, and the pepper tree and all the other trees were there. And the house was pea green and not light blue as I last remember seeing it. I went to the door and knocked. Then I decided to see if it was locked. I went in and Genesis was playing on the Stereo, one of their early albums. All our old furniture was there including Pete Richard’s Stereo. Jim had been in the bathroom and said, “I wondered when I was going to be seeing you”. Just then I heard barking. Toby was at the back door and wanted to be let in to greet me. “I forgot we had taken him along”. I said I was a little confused and could he enlighten me. Jim pointed to a tape recorder and said “You were recording a tape last Sunday. Maybe you said something”. I turned on the tape recorder. It was live Rush with “Working Man”. He told me that all the people living now are really dead. He told me, “I was standing by the road trying to hitch a ride the rest of the way when I black out or something and then I noticed the weather had changed somehow, and there were a lot fewer cars on the road”. I asked about Mark Campbell. Jim said “He’s not dead”. I didn’t say what I was thinking but joked, “Well with that black dye he puts in his hair you can’t be sure”. He said this was Monday and he’d been here for two days. I said, “I’m going to call someone. I’m thinking of Mr. Monahan from my old neighborhood. I forget his first name, it’s either John or- - - Jim- - I’m gona go with Jim”. I picked up the phone book and called him. Meanwhile Jim got a glass of water from the Sparklettes tank. “I haven’t seen that here in ages”. I tried to explain to Jim that I was from the future and all this was strange to me. Mr. Monahan said that all or north Orange County was like an isolated island and it had some kind of a barbed wire electric field around it and everyone who had tried to escape was killed in the attempt. He said “I haven’t been getting my VA payments from Washington”. He then made reference to the stuff on TV. It was really strange stuff like Chet Huntley interviewing Elvis, and some horror movie starring Gary Gilmore. I said I might pay him a visit and he said, “The bus service is better now than when I first got here. There’s more drivers”. I hung up and began questioning Jim more. “All this time since at least April 1973 anyway there’s been people arriving here?”. Jim said “Another forty thousand arriving every day” “Huh?” “It’s in the song, “Don’t Fear the Wreeper”. Do you have that album?” I said. “Not now” he said. I said, “What made you think of that?” Jim said, “B O S C, Blue Oyster Secret Cult” “Oh.” “Isn’t there a crescent moon on the cover of that album?” “Yes” he said, and added “Didn’t you say you were gazing at a crescent moon when you were spirited away?” “Yes” I said. And added, “What’s the phase of the moon now?” “Pretty close to full, I think, remember?” “Yes” I said that would mean the light was from the east if that meant anything. Jim said, “If you look at the moon on the album it could be a hole in some roof with the light shining in from the east”. “That would be prophetic”, I said. There was a pause. Then I said “You said the sun was in his eyes? We were going east; he was headed west”. Jim said, “No Dave. The road switches back when it hits the upgrade. He would have been headed south east”. I said, “Well, do you have his number? We’re gona sue him aren’t we?” “We can’t do anything, Dave, we’re dead, and he’s on the other side!” “Well, what’s the guy’s name, did you learn that?” “It was a Mr. Crane”. “Crane!” I said. “What’s the matter?” “Oh nothing, something from my future. Well, can I even drive here?” “Why don’t you look in your pocket?” Jim said. “I’ll look in my room” I said. I went to my room and found it and said ‘It says here I’m able to drive till December 31^st. 1984. I guess that’s when the Antichrist takes over”. “You look worried.” Jim said. “Well, to be honest, I cheated on my eye test in October 1979 when I last took the test. These glasses of mine haven’t been changed since 1968”. “I told you those glasses looked old”. I said, “The thing is in October of- - - next year I got in a car accident in late October. I wasn’t injured but the car was pretty messed up. Somebody, and I suspect Pete Richards, raised the question of my eyesight then and they tested me and I failed. I don’t want that happening now.” Jim said, “Do you think Mr. Crain will do that now, which he can’t; he isn’t here”. I said, “Hold it, you’re giving me a bad flashback”. Jim: “Flashback?” “Yeah, I was writing this imaginary story about another Mr. Crane and he was mocking me in Sept-ember of 1983 because I had plans to buy a car and he said I wouldn’t even be able to pass the eye test”. “Well you’ll have to leave your future behind now”. I said, “Hey Jim, I bet you didn’t know Walter Mondale is going to lose the Presidential race in 1984” “Well that’s a no brainer”. I said, “Just what are you people using for money these days?” “I’ve got money in the bank for now”, Jim said. I said, “I do, too- - but it just occurred to me right now that I might run out. I just thought of something I need to do”. “What are you doing?” Jim said. “I’m calling KNI printers to cancel printing on my book” “Are you sure?” “I don’t know who I’ll get but I’m going to try, because it just occurred to me that a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush”.

Well there you are. There’s your excerpt. Like all good soap operas there are a lot of unanswered questions. We’re here to drivel them out over weeks and months.

Welcome to Bush Impeachment Central. Actually there's a whole new way in which Bush will be impeached by Historians and that's his utterly shoving Global Warming and the whole ecology thing under the table. I think people in as little as five years from now, in 2011 will be scratching their heads wondering how we ever had this guy as President. According to sixty minutes there is this whole thing with nuclear waste near Vancouver, Washington that's making its way tword the Columbia river. There will be a major disaster, Chernoble stile, if that happens, and the threat appears almost certain to. On April 26th. of last week we celebrated the 20th. anniversary of Chernoble in Russia. Of course this adminestration is even worse than we thought. It appears that Valerie Plame (?) was under cover invesstigating Nukes in Iran. I guess that's a topic the adminestration doesn't care about. I think stem cell research is really going to take off in the next presidential adminestration, whoever he or she is. Apparently twenty years ago according to Andy Rooney on his bit last Sunday, showed predictions CBS news had made twenty years ago for now, and among other things was that everyone would have a jacuzzi in their bathroom. Also predicted that every form of center would be abolished due to new discovered drugs. If we cut down too much of the Amazon forrests, the plants the drugs are made out of may become extinct before we get to them. Conservatives delight in saying there is absolutely no future in stem cell research so we should give it up and return to more "conventional" medicine. Yeah, like live leeches. Never let it be said conservatives are not nay-sayers. Some question the morality of using human embryos for the project. These embryos are under a death sentense any how and the Utilitarian in me says we ought to make use of them. My new philosophy is, "If Jesus won't heal you- - use stem cells". I think whoever is president come 2009 will be the one who is really "building a bridge to the 21st. Century. For some people, being President isn't good enough. Teresa on Passions isn't running for President, she's running for "God". If you wonder about a woman President, how about a woman God? I think it would be a refreshing change, myself. I think you'd get someone with more of a "get things done" attitude, but also someone with a lot more human compassion.

Two blogs back we "dropped" the name of Mark Campbell into the mix. Perhaps you people would like to learn a little more about it. Well, I've been looking for any excuse to use something from the archives. The following recounting of mine was done in a July 2004 file:

And now it’s more of “Things you may have forgotten about the ZAC”. In the spring of 1979 we had developed the theology of land was good and the sea was bad. The desert was good for spiritual renewal. Fish and other sea life was good, boats were bad. (who’d guess we’d get our theology from Kenny the Shark) Oysters were good but pearls were bad. The Christians were in the boats trying to catch fish. As you know I sent Bob Howland that letter addressed “The Church of the Holy Mackerel” and theology by “Karl Barf”. We discuss this in the Tombs file. We even invented that story about Howard Richards getting seasick on his way to Catalina in er. June 1970. Actually it was I who made that trip and I did not get sea sick. X’s were good and O’s were bad. X’s stood for openness and the emanation of energy and Life Force. Circles were bad because they excluded, and then denoted rules and regulation, and denoted limitation, and denoted repetition and predictability of action. The Wheel of Fortune tarot card was seen as an unlucky one by us because it was number 16 in our sequence, and sixteen was seen as a dangerous year. Mark also had the thing of the cosmic Rainbow. The colors went from violet to red, and then some. Earth was in realm twelve. There were twenty two realms just as there were twenty two tarot cards. Actually me and Mark decided to give Jim Cooper credit for the tarot card part of it, because this was seen as of lesser import-ance. Realm eleven was The Sea of Green, a la Yellow Submarine. This is basically a negative place. Like being on a bad acid trip all the time. Both Richi Vallenz and Stewart Sutcliffe spent time there and neither considers it worth remembering. Realm ten was a “mirror universe” like the psychics talk about, only this realm has a controlling influence over our world, so they aren’t equal. Realm nine, the Chariot, is psychic travel, equivalent to micro waves that travel through things. Realm eight is the red realm. In this purgatory realm you are asked to solve riddles. Realm seven is Justice. You are given a reward (symbolized by yellow or Gold) for your life, and Realm six is green, which stands for paradise. Grace Slick and Paul Kantner had a child together in 1970 and called it “God”. Mark Campbell was captivated by this “Peace Child” mythology. But other than exist, what Zachery did was unimportant. That is, until X number of decades passed. Only thing is, Tomorrow never Got Here. In this the ZAC contradicted another of its axioms. “It’s not the destination’ it’s the Journey that’s important”. I think people need to think of that. Personally, I like Charles Manson’s expression of “Bringing a person to Now”. That is, suddenly deciding what’s important- - right Now- - not in the bye and bye. I don’t know. Any religion with a Messiah, that Messiah better be fifty years old and in a place of Governmental Power, or he’s useless in these times.

I want to talk about Mark Campbell a little. There are two divergent version of how Mark came in contact with our social circle. One of them is on the next file and I haven’t typed that yet. The other is the one in Sougern, which doesn’t put Mark on the scene till early 1980. When I told Bill Gunderson I was just a little mentally fuzzy on how Mark and I first met he figured he’d better come up with another account. Mark was a guy who was good at “playing possum” amongst Christians. He knew to keep his cool and not express his opinion amongst all the religious rhetoric. It was only with me in private that he said Born Again Christianity was a bunch of bullshit. He talked to [bleeped out. This individual might be traced by his nickname and he might not like that] (alias Jim Cooper) but didn’t entirely trust him. Are you all clear? Mark was interested in film making and photography. He was fascinated by lighting and camera angles and what was in a picture. He was a definite believer in the axiom “Every Picture Tells A Story”. He definitely believed you could tell a story from a photograph.

OK I'd like to do a couple of songs now. I've got a verse from June 1980 and then a verse from "See You in Hell" from August of 1979. There are three more verses in the preceeding posting that follows: C R I stands for Christian Research Institute.

Well I saw you down at C. R. I. and you walked in
Do I have to tell you one more time I think it's a sin
You know he'll string you out, and hang you up
Cause I told you before- - You're All Screwed Up!

My friend, Judas Iscariot
His names means "Praise the Lord"
He got himself elected
Chairman of the board
He says "Palestine is yours to liberate
You just say the Word"
As Jesus places on Judas' plate
A freshly deposited turd
"You ought not to have done that
It will not searve you well
As Judas makes plans with the Priests
To send Jesus off to Hell

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It occurred to me that the Wickipedia is Free. Therefore they won't mind if I "lift" a portion of "The Jesus Myth" to more adequetly illustrate a point or two- -

Star of Bethlehem

Although many explanations have been offered for the Star of Bethlehem, no actual record of any such astronomical phenomenon can be found.

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Herodian Massacre of the Innocents

As mentioned above, Matthew 2:16 claims that Herod ordered the slaughter of all the children "in Bethlehem, and in all the coasts thereof," who were two years old or younger. Bethlehem is situated about fifteen miles from the coast of the Dead Sea, and about twice that distance to the coast of the Mediterranean, in the heart of Judea. No mention is made anywhere of any infanticide of any proportion anywhere near that time or region, let alone one of such a horrific magnitude.

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Flight to Egypt

Also as mentioned above, Matthew 2:13-16 records the holy family as having fled to Egypt. Though they may well have remained incognito while they lived there, the Bible says nothing on the matter one way or the other. If they did not keep their identities hidden, it is most likely that Philo, who was living in Alexandria at this time, would have recorded the presence of the prophesied and persecuted future King of the Jews.

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Public miracles

The Bible records Jesus as having performed some very public miracles, in front of crowds numbering, in some cases, in the thousands. He healed the sick, blind, and lame; he raised the dead; he walked on water; and he fed multitudes with table scraps. History is replete with people doing such deeds, but every other instance is universally assumed to be mythic fiction.

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Public ministry

Jesus preached the Sermon on the Mount to a crowd of "multitudes," and the Sermon on the Plain to "great multitude of people out of all Judaea and Jerusalem, and from the sea coast of Tyre and Sidon, which came to hear him, and to be healed of their diseases." This clearly indicates that Jesus must have been a popular figure known throughout the entire region; yet, no mention is made of any preacher giving such a sermon to such crowds.

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The trial

Jesus's trial is notable for what it describes as a great many of the most egregious possible violations of Jewish and Roman law and custom by all officials involved. The trial is said to have taken place during Pesach, one of the holiest holidays for Jews then and now, on which such activities are most strictly forbidden. There was no need for the Jews to appeal to Roman authority for assistance in the trial; they had full authority from the Romans to execute anybody for any reason sanctioned by their own laws. There was even less reason for the Romans to agree to intervene in what would have been to them internecine provincial politics. The behavior of the Sanhedrin, such as spitting on Jesus, would have been just as shocking to people then as would similar action by the members of the United States Supreme Court today. If Pilate had agreed to take the case, he would not have permitted an unruly mob to have remained present, let alone have a say in the trial. While the Romans courts, like all courts, surely freed the guilty and executed the innocent, they never would have publicly declared their intention to do so any more than would any modern court; Pilate's acquiescence in granting the mob Barabbas in exchange for Jesus is incomprehensible. Finally, had Pilate actually acted as described, Rome would have had his head on a platter, figuratively if not literally, for letting a mob dictate his actions as well as for general gross misconduct.

In short, if even one aspect of the trial happened as described, it would have caught the attention--and raised the ire--of a great many important people in the region and beyond. If all of it happened as described, it would have been the most scandalous trial of the millennium.

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The crucifixion

While there are undoubtedly many people who were crucified who remain unknown to history, various records of countless crucifixions survive. Romans saw crucifixion as a most ignominious way to die, and, as such, crucifixions often caught the attention of local historians. Sometimes Romans would crucify hundreds of people a day, but they also crucified people singly or in small groups. Josephus records many of these, including that of a Jesus who was the son of a man named Stada, but nobody recorded any crucifixion of a charismatic rebel preacher who could be mistaken for Jesus Christ.

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Portents at Jesus's death

The Gospels record ominous portents as having occurred at the time of Jesus's death. As recorded in Matthew 27:45-54 and similarly in the other synoptic Gospels, a three-hour darkness was "over all the land"; the veil of the temple was rent; there was an earthquake; and the graves opened and dead saints "appeared unto many" in Jerusalem.

No eclipse would have been astronomically possible at the time; Pesach, according to the lunar calendar, always is celebrated with the start of the full moon, and eclipses can only happen when the moon is new. Further, no eclipse ever lasts for more than a few minutes--let alone three hours. No account of this most remarkable event, visible from "all the land," can be found outside the Gospels.

Records of major earthquakes from the period are rather comprehensive, yet no recorded earthquake happened at a time when the crucifixion could have happened.

The rending of the veil of the temple would have been a most remarkable occurrence, yet it remained intact until the temple was destroyed in 70 CE.

Had presumably all the graves in the area been opened and a corresponding number of dead saints "appeared unto many" in Jerusalem, it is absolutely certain that those many would have reported the fact, yet none did.

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The Resurrected Jesus

Acts 1:3 says that, for forty days after his resurrection, Jesus continued his ministry, yet no extra-Biblical record can be found of the most remarkable fact of a man, very publicly executed, continuing to do for over a month that which got him executed in the first place.

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The Ascension

According to Acts 1:9, Jesus Ascended to Heaven from atop Mount Olivet, which would have been in full view of all of Jerusalem. Once more, no account of the Ascension can be found outside of the Bible.

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They're selling tickets to the crusifiction
They're painting the sign posts red
"This thing should never have happened"
Some Jewish Rabi said
Jesus looks out over the crouds
They're blank faces all to see
As he cries out to his god in anguish
"Hast Thow forsaken me?
And off in the distance
He hears the tolling of a bell
As Jesus closes his eyes to forget it all
And so descends to Hell

Observers of bestial habbit
Who pull sheep out of ruts
Pass the hours merrily
Doing things with each other's butts
The sky is suddenly a blaze
The shepherds are filled with fright
"You can have it all right now
If you just come to the light"
And the three wise men are homeward bound
The shepherds to not tell
Sad tales of genocide
With its origens in Hell

Mary Magdolane is very "easy"
"Seek His salvation", she says
From a delapedated flop-house
Just outside Juarez
In comes the rich young man he's moaning
About the loss of his property
She says, "You must surrender your soul
if you ever want to be free"

I forget the rest of the words. This is from "See You In Hell", which I wrote in August of 1979, nine verses worth, to the tune of "Desolation Row" by Bob Dylan.

"It Takes One To Know One"

If Sixty Minutes is right the "Pierre de Sion" or whatever it's called is a complete fraud that was formed in 1952 or something by a man a "legond in his own mind", who died in 1990 or something. I guess his son, "Jesus" is still around. It would seem there is no real secret to Renes Le Chateau. Biship Soonierre really didn't discover any "treasure" or any secret at all about Jesus to blackmail the church with. It seems he was just guilty of the crime of "selling masses" or "Simony", as it is called. I am not ready to abandon all yet. Perhaps the Di Vinci Code is less than factual, but "The Jesus Story" is less than that, as you can see for yourself reading above. Of course there are still those mysterious "stations of the cross" paintings in that Chapel. One showed Jesus in a Scottish kilt, whereas another showed some desciples taking the body of Jesus out of the tomb under a full moon. As you know Jewish burial custom demands that bodies be burried the same day, and before sun down to avoid ritual uncleanness. This would be particularly important for celebrating a Jewishy holiday. I think the Di Vinci Code still has enough facts to make seeing it worth-while. Christrianity is like a floating ice burg. It's massive; it's dangerous, but it has no roots. When the heat is on people seem to keep sliding off of it finding it harder to maintain their "grip of faith" than they used to. One of these days after a bout of turning up the heat of truth, the ice berg will break up entirely. (Selah)

SOMETIMES UGLY CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD WHERE HE SAYS THINGS YOU THINK HE SHOULD REGRET TO YOU- IS NOT JUST IN YOUR MIND (Selah) THE FOLLOWING MATERIAL WAS NOT MADE UP BUT IS ACTUALLY ADDRESSED TO A MAN ON THE RADIO WHO CALLS HIMSELF JESUS ON KFI AND FANCIES HIMSELF THE EMBODYMENT OF ALL PERFECTION AND PERFECT GUIDANCE.

Dear Neil Sedadra, or whoever produced the Jesus Christ Show

First of all I think the whole idea of anyone posing as Jesus Christ is blasphamus. Secondly he's done a very poor job of representing the Gospell. He seems against the primary tennants of the Faith. He doesn't believe in Pray for any functional purpose, he doesn't believe God talks to or leads individuals, he doesn't believe in tongues, and he regards those in need as "swine". I have heard countless calls I didn't like his response to but three of them have made an indellible impression in my mind. There is the one where some relitive got a suicidal relative hooked on some drug that probably contributed to that person's actually comitting suicide. To Jesus this is "no big thing". Human life is worth less than the doctrine of complete an unconditional forgiveness or "letting go". For Jesus if doesn't matter whether the offending party repents. Secondly is the call about a man who lost his wife and thought it was his fault and prayed to God to be worthy to get her back. I remember when he said he was trying to be humble Jesus said two things that stand out. He said, "Humility only comes from being humble" and he also said "Words don't mean a thing". In other calls Jesus has used the words "People don't change". I wonder how Christian either of these statements are. Thirdly, Jesus got a call from a man whose girlfriend was about to get an abortion and he wanted to do anything he could to prevent her from getting an abortion and taking human life. Jesus said that (a) The man could not be forgiven if she DID get an abortion. "I know you want to be off the hook for this but that's not going to happen". Jesus also said (b) The man should not put any "pressure" on the girl to NOT GET an abortion. If it's going to happen, it's going to happen.

I myself have had "issues" with Christianity over the years. I've had a lot of problem with church Pastors and an in complete sympathy with those callers who say they've "had it" with organized religion. I guess you could say that the Devil has tried everything he could to shake me loose from my faith in Christianity. He's tried opposition, lack of confidence, doubt, and other people contradicting themselves. But not untill Your show was he successful. One thing is that to look Jesus in the face and tell him I reject him is something that would be unthinkable- - till Now. Never before have I ever used such words as "asshole" or "jerk" in connection with Jesus. I look now on Christianity with a sense of revulsion. I'd like you to consider this last example. One of the Pastors who has gone on an insulting rampage with me attacking my Faith, my mental health, my upbringing, my family, ect. once gave a "Christmas sermon", and I used that term advisadly, where he said that one of the things that qualified Jesus to be the Messiah is that he had a Good Family upbringing with loving, nurturing parents. Jesus on your show has stated that there isn't the slightest thing worth knowing about himself outside the Gospells. We are to assume that Jesus had an idilic "Leave It To Beaver" upbringing, and was a stranger to strife or sorrow or pain in any way growing up. Your host has pretty much stated that if anybody has "Issues" - - - with Christianity it's THEIR problem to solve Themselves- - BEFORE they can even think about becomming a Christian. That Pastor I referred to said pretty much the same thing. I see nothing morally Redeeming about Christianity as it now exists.

I live in Stanton and I think you see my E mail address. I sometimes wonder why God allows you on the air at all. Sometimes in life we are known by our friends and by people whose conduct we Refuse to Criticize, but accept whole, as though the individual were perfect. Respectfully, yadda - yadda - yadda
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Dear Jesus Christ Show Producer and/or Jesus Christ,

I wrote you one letter last week that I got a response to, but then I followed it up with another letter with a lot of scriptural references on the subject of Death, what the Afterlife does and does not consist of, and spiritual realms. This letter appears to have gotten "bounced" by your Computer. I wouldn't want to think it was my fault the letter didn't go through. From this end the letter appeared to initially go through but was then sent back. I really don't see how you can have this stance of "be bold; be brave- and call" if you have some automated letter rejection system.

On yesterday's Sunday show you again made a number of challenging statements such as "there is no such thing as confusion" and you also likened Faith to a person who works out and builds big muscles. Part of the problem with your show is that you have a Rationalization for everything and real answers to nothing that really matters. In the Last Judgement were you really God I'd be facing a God who rejects learned experiance, rational logic, and one seemingly without a moral compus. I think your show is doing enormous damage to Christianity and for my own well-being I'm not going to listen any more and have you people play with my mind. To say any more in this letter would prove pointless, but I'll end with this Rolling Stones song quote:

:Little by little - - I'm losing my love for you

'Cause little by little- - I found out that you was untrue

Everybody has to face the Judgement of Reality sometime- - Even You

The name of this blog is karmic suicide. "He was a fool unto himself". I was going to feature as the main highlight of thos blog a story about a guy who thought about attempting suicide but first his mind did a twilight flight of fancy and he was in the Twilight Zone not knowing what was real and what was not. (Like so many Star Trek eposodes you've seen) He faced his crisis on May 3rd. 1972. (So you can see why I'm writing around this date), which was also on a Wednesday. I thought of calling this blog, "A Sad Story". It's kind of like an updated version of Job, but when I reviewed the story for blogging I thought there were too many little "bits" the author of the story might not made public without my talking to him first. Let me just tell you the story anyhow. He was thinking of comitting suicide and had three different bottles of downers on the table with a bottle of Chiante to wash it down with. Then his mind raced and suddenly it was April 1st. of 1991, or at least it was in his own mind. That fell on a Monday' is anybody cares. (It's also the second day that I owned a VCR recorder) When he "woke up" and talked to God he thought it was April of 1991 and he wasn't sure why he was dead but he had lived not that bad of a life in the past nineteen years. He'd gotten job training and gotten educated, and secured a good job. He'd gotten married to a foxy blonde girl with large knockers, who fancied herself as the reincarnation of marolyn monroe. He'd gotten married within days of Charles and Dianna's wedding in England. Like that couple they had two blond haired boys, who were good looking. They lived on a street named Pinewood in North Anaheim in the Chicano district to save money. But according to God, the man never lived beyond May 3rd. 1972 and he had just imagined the rest of his life and got into extensive arguments with God mostly centering around the "would have, could have, should have" finger waggings of God telling him all the things in life he missed out on because he killed himself. There is also an ill-willed Pastor who's words end up in God's mouth. God in the story being more like the Devil than any diety you'd actually want to get to know. At one point mid story he was transported to a beach near the end of Crenchaw blvd. and there's a secret tunnel in the side of a cliff with lots of artifacts in there filled with secrets to read. But just as David Stanley (no relation) gets interested God yanks him back to what passes for the "hereafter". After extensive more arguing with God, God sends him back to May 3rd. 1972 and he remembered he had an appointment to see Doctor Glidden, his psychiatrist today. He walks to the psychiatrist because someone had taken the car and it was "only" a mile away. He thinks about his flash time-warp experiance and wonders whether he should tell Dr. Glidden about it.

This is another story. I started typing this one last night but I had software problems (or my incompetence) and had to abort. Once there was a man driving through the desert in some sight seeing trip. He thought he could take a short cut by turning off onto a dirt road but after a while he realized he was low on gas but he kept going thinking there'd be a filling station somewhere. Eventually he ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere. The only things around were some old abandoned wooden buildings. He looked for a phone but found none. He's not even sure phones were even invented at the time these buildings went up. Finally he comes upon a water pump. By now he was getting mighty thirsty but the pump didn't work. Upon further investigation he sees a quart of water and a note. The note was written by an old man who said "This pump will give you all the water you want if you just prime the pump with this quart of water. Don't drink any of it or you won't have enough to prime the pump". He knew a quart of water would satisfy his thirst. But how long would he be here. What if he poured the water down a rat-hole and the pump still proved to be worthless? This is a topic of which Sunday sermons are made. If he poured the water and denied himself he might be called "A fool unto himself".

Many wonder what cosmic fources called John Lennon to be assasented by Mark David Chapman. Well it is our belief that the modas opperandi came from an evil star called Alcion, or Alcyonne. There was a force that moved its way eastward accross the Pacific and accross America and rooted itself in New York City at the Dakoda. Yoco was not killed because Alcyonne was not after her and she is of different karma than John. She and he have different cosmic fates. In the afterlife time becomes a "space" dimension. You see it all at once and have no conception of any delay or one thing coming "after" or "before" another. Some people enter the Twilight Zone and think the afterlife will bring a changed reality of newfound happiness, but in actuality the words are true, "You'll never run away from you" (Selah)